Hey everyone. Just thought I'd let everyone know... I'm gay. I can't go on pretending to be what I'm not. I'm never going to be happy that way. I'm tired of trying to fight who I am. I can't help it and I won't try anymore. It's pointless. It's not that I don't like girls, I just like guys a lot more. I figured it would be easier to just say it on here instead of trying to tell everyone in person.

Unfortunately school starts tomorrow and I don't have much of my work done. I'm really not looking forward to going to Holmes. I still my be transferring out if my mom starts trippin again over having to drive me back and forth. I'm hopin she won't but it's very much possible. Especially after I tell her I'm gay and everything. I just have a feeling that she's going to flip out about it even though i'm sure like all of you that she already has a pretty good idea. She hasn't heard it directly from me yet and I think that might change things. I don't know. You all have heard me talk about her before so you kinda know what she's like.

Anyway, I love you all but I gotta go. See ya'll at school.

~The Scholarly

hey everyone. Michigan was great. Not as good as least year but great none the less. I'm glad to be home though. I miss everyone, hope to see you all soon

Hey everyone! Getting ready to leave for Michigan. I'm really excited. I feel bad though, I was so excited to come back to band and now that I 'm back I'm leaving again. Then again, they didn't make me feel very welcome. In fact I was almost ready to quit on Friday. For some reason, I was just not feelin it. I felt like nobody wanted me there. I'm really depressed though because it was my senior year and my last band camp and I completely missed it.

Not excited about going back to school. Don't have any of my homework done. GSP was too hectic and busy to get it all done. Maybe I'll get lucky and I'll get to switch schools. I don't really have any friends left there anyway. Well maybe a few, but not very many. Not 95 like I had at GSP. I want to go back so bad. Home sucks. I hate Covington now. And Erlanger never did seem too appealing. I guess I'm just depressed because I had to leave.

-Scholarly Yours

It really makes me mad when I think about all of my friends who applied to this program and didn't get selected and then look at some of the people who did. There's this kid named Jamie who is an absolute moron! and i really just can't believe he's here. he's fifteen and was bumped up a coulple of grades so he's a junior now which i guess they found impressive but he's really opinionated but he has no facts to back it up and i'm getting sick of listening to his stupid theories. Like the fact that he's not against Vietnam, he just thinks we went in on the wrong side. DUMBASS!! We were fighting communism, not helping it. Duh.

Ok done with that. So, I went to Shakespeare in the park on Saturday night and saw Fiddler On the Roof. Wow, what a great show. I know, Fiddler isn't Shakespeare, but hey, I didn't decide to put it in the Shakespeare festival, all i'm sayin is that it's an amazing show. Anyway, this girl named summer went too. I really like her but don't know how to tell her. Plus, I don't know if trying to have a relationship with someone who lives 75 miles away is really worth the effort. I don't know what to do.

Guess what, Lloyd's marching band is down here for band camp. I saw their bus yesterday. I really want to be home. It made me really homesick when I walked past them today and they were all practicing and fooling around and just havin fun. You guys will never know how much I miss you. I can't wait to come home and see you. I've only got a week and a half left or somethin like that. Well, actually this program ends this Friday but then I've got camp in Michigan on Monday and that's not over until like, the 9 of August. But I will be back on the 10 for practice. I really miss everyone. Can't wait until competitions start. Our show is going to rock. I love everyone and if anyone wants to talk, my email is d_manholmes@yahoo.com I check everyday at least once and will always reply. I love you guys.